“You may be going through tough times, or you may have major obstacles in your path, all of which give you good reason to be unhappy or upset. But being unhappy won’t change anything for the better. Being negative and sour isn’t going to improve anything for the better. You might as well choose to be happy and enjoy life! When you do that, not only will you feel better, but your faith will cause God to show up and work wonders in your life. God knows that we have difficulties, struggles, and challenges. But it was never His intention for us to live one day “on cloud nine,” and the next day in the dumps, defeated and depressed because we have problems. God wants us to live consistently. He wants us to enjoy every single day of our lives.” — Joel Osteen, Your Best Life Now, pg. 269-270.
As I begin writing today’s entry I have to tell you that I am so much more at peace. I wrote most of what I have posted on my laptop during the first few days and weeks of my experience of learning about my diagnosis and it was pretty raw. But that is what journaling is all about. I have prayed and prayed and prayed each and every day for God to give me strength and wisdom of what I should be doing. I have wanted the answers yesterday if possible! I have wanted to know what God has in store for me for the future, today! I have begged Him to give me some sign of what I am supposed to do so that my future won’t be so bleak. One day, my wife shared with me a devotional from a smalll booklet. It was about positive thinking and living life to it’s fullest potential, no matter what kind of trials and tribulations we were experiencing. It was about choosing to be happy inspite of our circumstances…And I was thinkng, “Yeah, easier said than done. You’re not the one with HD.” I decided, just for kicks and giggles, to pick up a copy of the book, “Your Best Life Now: 7 Steps to Living at Your Full Potential.” As I began to read it, tears of joy and happiness began to roll down my cheek! “Oh God, thank you so much for using this man’s book to bring back some hope to my life!” As I read page after page, I began to feel an inner strength that I had not felt in a long time. Even though my situation felt like such a lost cause, and I knew it would take some time to climb out of this hole of complete hopelessness, I felt so much peace because I know that God still wants me to do great things for him. So I am choosing to move forward, by faith not by feeling, knowing that God will take care of me each and every moment.
“Thank you, Lord for giving me the peace of knowing that in spite of my trials and tribulations, in spite of the challenges of my illness, I can choose to be happy and content with the life you have given me to live. Thank you. Amen”